8/13/2024: I spoke to my therapist today. I also went to the doctor's office. Last time I came here, I didn't want to see my weight because I knew I had lost a lot as I hadn't been eating and had relapsed in my ED. Today, the nurse told me I made a substantial gain since last time, and I felt okay looking at my weight. I'm really glad that I've been able to pick myself back up and get into the routine of eating properly again. I'm still struggling, but not as much as before. I'm going to start writing poetry again as well.

8/12/2024: it was incredibly wet outside today.

8/11/2024: trying to stay tethered to reality. every day is different. I get so tired of feeling this way and feeling so stuck and broken.

8/8/2024: lion's gate. PTSD symptoms rearing their ugly head recently. Trying to keep my head above water. I feel imperfect and full of loath for myself.